i am now very, very, very depressed.
the seniors graduated.
i've known these people for ages. far more so than my own class. i almost skipped up into their class when i was very young and i probably should have. it's physically painful to think that i get to go through another year without seeing these guys every day.
after i stumbled out of the gym and said various goodbyes to people, i started walking back into the huge groups of people in the quad. heather was by my side - sure, she's nice, kinda cute, and has good intentions - but she's not fulfilling in the least bit.
then i had to congratulate all the people who are leaving..
first came the comp sci types: sedrak, melis (who isn't really comp sci, but you get the idea). i gave mike a nice loud 'YOU SON OF A BITCH' for old time's sake and melis and i had the same irreverent conversation as always. those guys were great.
then came SPS - joel, riyad, the other blakes. i'm going to remember these guys for the fun times and their intelligence. but i'll see them again, so all is good.
then came choir. this absolutely destroyed me. dane, katy, emily - emily's going to austin. will likely see her again.
dane's going to new england - i'll hear from him every now and again, and his story will become the same thing
katy's going to cornell - she's probably the one who ultimately meant the most to me. she's going to become very happy and very successful; i can sense things like this. and cornell people become very busy and are very happy to leave their pasts behind. long story short, i said my final goodbyes to katy and dane. i won't see them every day anymore. i may end up counting the times i see them again on one hand. and these are people i've truly come to love, in the best sense of the word: i would *never*, ever, ever, wish any sort of pain on them, no matter the price. i've learned something very important today: i can't stand goodbyes, and i never want to say 'goodbye' once and for all to anyone ever again.
dane's going to new england - i'll hear from him every now and again, and his story will become the same thing
katy's going to cornell - she's probably the one who ultimately meant the most to me. she's going to become very happy and very successful; i can sense things like this. and cornell people become very busy and are very happy to leave their pasts behind. long story short, i said my final goodbyes to katy and dane. i won't see them every day anymore. i may end up counting the times i see them again on one hand. and these are people i've truly come to love, in the best sense of the word: i would *never*, ever, ever, wish any sort of pain on them, no matter the price. i've learned something very important today: i can't stand goodbyes, and i never want to say 'goodbye' once and for all to anyone ever again.