So Alex and I have been killing time with various amigos playing lots of Gran Turismo, but beyond that there's practically nothing going on. Tonight though, I got into a mood that reminded me of last summer and how different things were then.
Looking back on the entries from exactly a year ago, I have to ask: what the hell happened? I went to UT orientation, had the time of my friggin' life, and then college life was so drastically different. Living in Jester and eating crappy food may seem lame in comparison to the honors dorms and the much-better Kinsolving cafeteria, but they just lack a certain survivalist charm. In orientation, I scrounged what I could, forcing myself to make it last somehow while I trudged across campus through the rain on the way to a bureaucracy office or the next social event. That crappy bunch of living conditions gave me the biggest adrenaline high of my life.
So I spent a year in the place that gave me the first adrenaline high. And after a few weeks, it just became life as usual. The strangeness must've worn off after a week. I hardly missed home at all, but there was no adrenaline rush like there had been back in June. I got used to living with Tim, the routine of classes, I got to know my friends a little better, and after no time at all it just became life as always. I was comfortable. I guess that kept my morale high so I wouldn't start screwing up in my classes, but that's gotta change.
Not the grades part, but the comfortable-ness. That said, I'm pretty damn happy about a lot of things that did happen in frosh year. I'm sitting here, home some 3 weeks from college, and I really miss a lot of things: the Drag, impromptu Halo games, the whole Blanton crowd (every last one of them engineers), Michelle, being in the same town as Kris, and, yeah, even really really bad local rock concerts that damage my ears so badly I can hear ringing at night in my room when I go to sleep here at home.
Meanwhile, home life is OK. But not great. It's awesome playing tennis and GT with Alex and I hope that keeps up, but there's none of the variety of last summer, as if there was any even then. The giant SSB gatherings aren't the same with all these young guys replacing our generation of smashers, there's no CS competitions every weekend - it's all just people chilling.
And in truth, I suppose it fits. It's summer, it's supposed to go slow and everyone's supposed to be laid-back. But until I can manage to slow down, I'm kinda bored.