I really wish I could write something big and complex and happy and stylistic. I'm feeling a lacking of real dedication to writing lately and it's annoying me. But then the same holds true for music and gaming and school and sleep and my social life.
College, friends, is a crack addiction. It's impossible to get enough of anything.
And I keep getting paranoid about my future. I want to study in Japan and Spain and London, but I don't have time to leave school to study in all of those places. And I want to work on my musical 'career' at the same time. And see more interesting movies. For those of you saying "Blake, STFU and relax:" I am relaxed. Ask anyone who sees me on a daily basis. It's not like I'm walking around going all Tweek on everyone.
BTW, Lost in Translation = great movie. Highly recommended. Very thoughtful, slyly humorous and bittersweet and optimistic like a good John Mayer song.
I experienced something beautiful tonight: my dear friend and Adventure Buddy extraordinaire Michelle sang to me. A Michelle Branch song, even. It was like she leaned over to whisper something into my ear and instead I heard a whisper-soft, beautiful, lovely voice sing a whole song, perfectly, right into my ear. That had always been a small daydream of mine: to have a girl sing a real throughtful girl song to me.
So that's out of the way - and the second time in a couple short months I've decided that music truly is better than sex. Not 100% of the time - but when music is heartfelt and emotional and takes you away from the place where you are - that transcends anything you can possibly feel. Kind of makes that paranoia go away. 